HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN MORE LIKE YOU

[SAY BYE BYE]

Like, so, when they hit me up, I'm not all poor and sad and disposable, like
how can I be all proud of myself and "talented" and know how to get married
at 22, telling myself that isn't some protection racket so that I don't have
to go through all of this.

How can I not be a saggy unsuccessful person and be all bright and shiny
like you, because this is why this happens to me, because I am a fat tired
ugly poor person and this is why this happens to me, and it is so cool that
it happened because of you because your association and interest in me
really boosts my fat miserable failure self it boosts my self-esteem.

On the other hand I would rather feel like garbage and have nothing to feel
bad about, wouldn't I feel like a stupid cunt having to "feel bad" and
"obligated" or "foolish" and shit, wondering if I "made the right choices".

At least I only have to regret my "choices" when you are around.

Thanks again for making me feel inferior to you. Like you have any
sensitivity or brains to understand that. How it feels when your friend
does to me what he did, and how you trot around with your kids and your SUV
and your home gym and how sensitive and you must be so proud of that degree
you got from some crappy state school like that means anything, you don't
know what it's like to die and not have people sorry about it, so that is
the last time you convince yourself you care.

You violate people when you "care" it's all about you and you're not even
that intelligent or talented.

Everyone around here knows what you did and how you treated me so you look
like a bigger fool than ever, you sure know how to cover your ass from day
one, from your high school prom right until now, don't you.

You don't know what it means to feel so violated and so ignored and you are
involved and you're just someone who rapes our lives and pisses in our
wounds, please choke on your own tongue and whatever stupid ideas, go read a
book and feel smart like we have time for that, all you do is crush
potential so you can feel good about yourself, I want you to learn that.
You are such a dumb bimbo.

You started it. Go have another baby like its nothing.

[SAY BYE BYE]

I can't imagine being you, knowing some woman you "admired", like a rapist
and the rapists who put money in your pocket you had no fucking right to be
in my world anyway.

You must feel really bad and stuff. Thanks for caring so publicly about
murder. It made me feel like my life was worth something when you made a
big production out of getting someone killed.

Or maybe you learned that assholes like you get people hurt when you are not
invited into their world. So you stay out of it. Forever. I don't give a
shit who your friends are. You fuckheads make the same fucking mistakes over
and over again, just because so and so said it was okay....well, it's not.

Thanks for remembering my life this way, like murder is something serious.
It's fun being dead.

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Like, so, when they hit me up, I'm not all poor and sad and disposable,
like how can I be all proud of myself and "talented" and know how to get
married at 22, telling myself that isn't some protection racket so that I
don't have to go through all of this.
How can I not be a saggy unsuccessful person and be all bright and shiny
like you, because this is why this happens to me, because I am a fat tired
ugly poor person and this is why this happens to me, and it is so cool
that it happened because of you because your association and interest in
me really boosts my fat miserable failure self it boosts my self-esteem.
On the other hand I would rather feel like garbage and have nothing to
feel bad about, wouldn't I feel like a stupid cunt having to "feel bad"
and "obligated" or "foolish" and shit, wondering if I "made the right
choices".
At least I only have to regret my "choices" when you are around.
Thanks again for making me feel inferior to you. Like you have any
sensitivity or brains to understand that. How it feels when your friend
does to me what he did, and how you trot around with your kids and your
SUV and your home gym and how sensitive and you must be so proud of that
degree you got from some crappy state school like that means anything, you
don't know what it's like to die and not have people sorry about it, so
that is the last time you convince yourself you care.
You violate people when you "care" it's all about you and you're not even
that intelligent or talented.
Everyone around here knows what you did and how you treated me so you look
like a bigger fool than ever, you sure know how to cover your ass from day
one, from your high school prom right until now, don't you.
You don't know what it means to feel so violated and so ignored and you
are involved and you're just someone who rapes our lives and pisses in our
wounds, please choke on your own tongue and whatever stupid ideas, go read
a book and feel smart like we have time for that, all you do is crush
potential so you can feel good about yourself, I want you to learn that.
You are such a dumb bimbo.
You started it. Go have another baby like its nothing.